WTF!?

Something tells me I should get another blog for my every-day ranting and raving about life in English. I just feel I've written in German a lot and this has sort of become the platform for keeping the world aborad up to date while so much "small stuff" is going on here every day. Somehow it seems I'm trying to combine two different purposes in one blog...do you know what I mean? Anyway...Now, this is kind of sad, but my creative me has left me hanging here, searching for a meaningful, yet witty, title. Therefore starting another blog at this point is just too time and energy consuming. Life can be so complicated ;-). Alas, for now I'll just throw it in here and keep mixing the English and the German for a little longer.

So I found out about a movie the other day that made me want to blog about it immediately, because I was so outraged: www.jesuscampthemovie.com. Just watching the trailer made me be so lost for words and left me in a state of complete disbelief, rage, sadness, disappointment and hopelessness, really. I ended up just crying (might have been hormones more than the movie, but it certainly set it off), because my head seems be too small or simply not wired for such thinking. The worldview depicted escapes me entirely and I doubt I will ever be able to grasp it. Kids talking like adults about "being saved" and how living a "Christian life" (no offense..but isn't that kind of an empty, malleable, somewhat convoluted phrase?) is "the right thing to do". All the tal about truth and being right and being saved and how everyone else is wrong and lost and will go to hell ...unless, of course, they find "the light" in this right wing church. To me, all I saw was darkness. Right and wrong implies so much judgment and so little tolerance, so little encouragement for diversity. What upsets me most every time is how militaristic these churches are, how war is supported, how war is just, how soldiers fight for freedom, etc. without ever seeing the other side. Without acknowledging that "they" are humans, too. And, most of all, without acknowledging that war is killing, it's destructive, it's inhumane. Period. I really don't want to hear all the bullshit excuses about freedom and democracy when hundreds of people get killed, injured, uprooted by war every single day. How exactly does that stand in agreement with christianity? So, we can't abort a baby because that's killing, but we can go straight ahead and bomb the shit out of other countries, killing tons of INNOCENT people, including babies (since innocence is always the response to why the death penalty is okay, but abortion isn't). Anyway. I'm not sure I want to see that movie. I have a feeling that would be biting off more than I could chew. I know this is out there and I've found myself wanting to bang my head against the wall about political and social issues many times since I've moved here...but certain lines I'm apparently not ready to cross yet. I'm afraid I'd lose hope, become cynical to the point of no return, or just get updet to the point of aggression, which really doesn't stand in agreement with my goal of being a nonviolent person wherever, whenever and as often as I can.

To finish on a lighter note, I was introduced to a short videoclip the other day that is REALLY funny (or is it?). Check it out: www.endofworld.net

I'm off to bed... good night!